Today I read an
article about a girl who lost her boyfriend at 29 to cancer. And that really
hit home. Not the losing my boyfriend (which yes I’d be absolutely devastated
if I lost) but her emotional response She was only 29 and she lost the love of
her life. She had her entire life ahead of her, yet she’ll never have all of
herself again. Part of her died with her boyfriend and for now it is the
smiling happy part of herself. Yeah one day it’ll come back, like a sappy rom
com she’ll be running to the happy part of herself, probably through the rain,
to be united with the audience clapping and cheering. But I’m not here to talk
about relationships…This whole episode got me thinking about my life. I came to Case last year as a freshman with hopes and aspirations. I wanted 4.0s all semesters and to work my butt off to med school. I was so caught up in the future that I forgot the now. Everything I did was with the future in mind and that majorly stressed me out. There were so many complete breakdowns but I got through them. I met so many people and made so many friends. They helped me stop making mountains out of molehills, they stopped me from holding grudges, and they stopped me from underestimating myself. So I guess if you're reading this you are incredibly awesome and precious but I digress.
Anyways today after reading this article,I was thinking about my own life I'm only 20 and I have my entire life ahead of me. In simple terms Im the piece of paper I printed out. It had the potential to be anything from my scrap ochem homework to my next masterpiece. It could be anything I wanted it to be. And just like that I realized I’m the blank paper. Just waiting to be a masterpiece no matter what the masterpiece turns up being. We’re always in such a rush to use up the paper and move on with life but maybe we should take a step back, breathe and just live in the moment. It’s scary to think that what we do now has the power to alter what happens for the rest of our life. But take it slow. There’s no rush because no chapter is over until it ends up okay. And if it’s not okay, make it okay. It’s your life and the only one who should be controlling it is you and yeah that’s not possible all the time but when it’s not, it’s not the end of the world.
You’re still a masterpiece waiting to happen and masterpieces take years to finish. Imagine the Mona Lisa after a day of work. You’re not that, you’re always going to be the Mona Lisa after it’s finished.
